Reflections, a simple yet complex idea. One which allows you to minutely distinguish every aspect of a moment in time, or even further yet, every moment which ones mind can remember. & now as i reflect on my young lives new challenges and decisions i know it is not a matter of i'll be successful or not, but rather a question of exactly how far i can push my courage out of the box to simply get started.
Ever since the dawn of time people have simply known what they want to do. Ask any five year old and they'll tell you they want to be a firefighter or a policeman. But now, as the time comes to take these steps the decision is much more difficult. School has become an essential part of our modern society and to take the step and decide to abandon the idea of school that i had my heart set on to step into a field of passion for which i have always seen a light is incredibly difficult.
Ever since i could remember i loved the feeling of a camera in my hands. When my mother got her first digital camera, a technology that was so divine in it's time but looks like a giant clunky piece of technology now with a tiny screen held a much different meaning to me then. It was when i first laid my hands on that amazing piece of technology that i realized i could see the world from a view entirely my own. See things that others could not, compose images that the regular every day eye skips over.
It was on our first family summer trip to Bon Echo Provincial Park that i harnessed the power of this. I had before then taken pictures, simply of anything that was intriguing to a twelve year old girl. But on this trip i took a picture which had changed my view on photography forever. A simple picture of the lake, but in this picture, within the top left hand corner was the branch of a tree. A simple bushel of leaves blocking that perfect picture which i had desired. But when I had taken the photo and seen the effect of the leaves it was my first real interaction with composition. I didn't know why, i just knew that the leaves in the foreground and the distant background intrigued me. Long before my discovery of aperature and depth of field i had created something spectacular to my twelve year old mind. And now, knowing what i do, it still holds the same awe factor to me. I still feel the same excitement every time i take a photo that i truly enjoy.
And now, as i plan to step into the world of professional photography i am mystified by what i am supposed to do. Before the plan was simple. Go to school, something i had always seemed relatively, even exceptionally, as i was told by others, good at. Go to school, do something you like, get a good job. Now it's a whole different ball field. Now it's push yourself, make your own ideas, make your own mark. Make your own business. And the more i reflect on it the more excited yet more nervous i become. I suppose I shall see where this takes me. But for now it's back to my own reflection and doing what i love most before i push myself to do something i will one day be entirely prepared to do. Good night blog world.
